Halloween

After I had my wonderful baby girls, I had forgo this occasion, Halloween. Time flies and soon, on 24 November, I will be 23. WOW~ 2 more years and I will be a quarter of the century old and next year would be the Dragon year. I wonder how it is like...

My Father-in-Law had called for a family meeting. The last time he did was on Mothers' Day back in May and it left me tearing real hard... And this time round, I will not be a wimp anymore... I will survived all crude remarks and many more. I feel this whole thing was crappy. I had no idea why he would want to force everyone to sit down and listen to him, blabbing but whatever, blame it on the patriarchy system he set. And F.M.L.

His character seems to fit in this Halloween mood as it's unpredictable, hazy and it's crappy. I was wondering... Maybe he just wants me to hate Halloween as much as I do not wish to celebrate Mothers' Day from this year on. Everytime I thought of the Mothers' Day when everyone supposed to be happy and embracing in this celebration mood.

I HAD TO FACE ALL CRAPS. PENALIZED AS IF I DO NOT WORTH ANY CENTS.

I need strength to keep me through this. And apparently 2 of my kids are my strengths. I wasn't bought up in such a pathetic system. In my family, everyone say their own views and we respect each others' views and acceptance is the key. In here, crap.

WHATEVER WE SAY IS NOT FINAL. Or rather we are turned a deaf ear. OR perhaps the meeting today will be something happy... Who knows for sure? LOL.

I would be glad if it's something happy. Thank god. I will get to see some lights. Anyway I JUST CANT WAIT TO MOVE OUT FROM THIS UNHAPPY PLACE.

And sometimes I wonder... If a divorce will really helps. If it does, I do not mind. I seriously do not mind.

Thank god.

Shall prepare my armor shield now for the battle later. I will be defenceless as I had always been...

Weapon-less.